Needless to say that all my stress and frustration culminated yesterday when my baby girl woke up from her nap after just 30 minutes and vomited from coughing. I literally cried. I felt bad for her for getting sick (I was seeing flashbacks to three weeks ago when she was so sick and miserable), then I felt bad for myself for having to smell it and clean it up, and I was so sad that she wouldn't go back to sleep after the whole ordeal. So instead of having her nap time to finally tackle somethings on my list, I had a baby who was into everything but didn't want me out of her sight or she would cry. By the time Zack got home I just need help and we worked on the list till about 9 PM. I am SO THANKFUL for such a great hubby who encourages me and supports me. I couldn't have done it yesterday without him.
So, this brings me to my lessons learned in the night. Last night Moriah continued to cough and choke and vomit. I think she woke up every two hours and then she took a good 30 minutes to be comforted back into dreamland. I did manage to get 5 hours of sleep in. During all that time awake God reminded me of things I should have already been doing. I was so stressed and frazzled not because my list was long, or my daughter was driving me nuts and then got sick. Rather I was stressed and frazzled because I was not leaning on Him, I was not seeking what He would desire me to do, I only saw my list. He showed me in the night while I held my baby girl, all congested but so sweet snuggled up against me that:
He will sustain me and my sick girl.
Psalm 54:4 Surely God is my help, He is the one who sustains me.
He will heal her. She will not be sick forever.
Matthew 12:16 ...Many followed Him, and He healed all their sick.
He will give me the strength I need to face the challenges of motherhood and this season.
Psalm 28:7 The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song.
I just have to ask and let Him. What a gracious loving God we serve!! I am praying Moriah sleeps better tonight but if not maybe I will learn something new, or be reminded of what I should already know, again.
I hope your day is going well, mine is sure going better than the past couple days.