Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Lessons Learned in the Night

Well, I hate to admit it, but the last couple days I have been a mess.  I have been very stressed and frazzled.  My to do list before we head out on our Christmas road trip is just overwhelming.  To top everything off I have had a very defiant, cranky toddler.  Moriah is getting four molars at once and seems to have entered the "testing twos" early.  On Monday she was literally laughing at me when I would tell her no.  Zack said it seems like someone switched on the naughty switch.  Don't get me wrong I am still madly in love with her and she is still SO sweet and adorable but wow, she has been pushing my buttons.  

Needless to say that all my stress and frustration culminated yesterday when my baby girl woke up from her nap after just 30 minutes and vomited from coughing.  I literally cried.  I felt bad for her for getting sick (I was seeing flashbacks to three weeks ago when she was so sick and miserable), then I felt bad for myself for having to smell it and clean it up, and I was so sad that she wouldn't go back to sleep after the whole ordeal.  So instead of having her nap time to finally tackle somethings on my list, I had a baby who was into everything but didn't want me out of her sight or she would cry.  By the time Zack got home I just need help and we worked on the list till about 9 PM.  I am SO THANKFUL for such a great hubby who encourages me and supports me.  I couldn't have done it yesterday without him.  

So, this brings me to my lessons learned in the night.  Last night Moriah continued to cough and choke and vomit.  I think she woke up every two hours and then she took a good 30 minutes to be comforted back into dreamland.  I did manage to get 5 hours of sleep in.  During all that time awake God reminded me of things I should have already been doing.  I was so stressed and frazzled not because my list was long, or my daughter was driving me nuts and then got sick.  Rather I was stressed and frazzled because I was not leaning on Him, I was not seeking what He would desire me to do, I only saw my list.  He showed me in the night while I held my baby girl, all congested but so sweet snuggled up against me that:

He will sustain me and my sick girl.  
Psalm 54:4 Surely God is my help, He is the one who sustains me.

He will heal her.  She will not be sick forever.
Matthew 12:16 ...Many followed Him, and He healed all their sick.
He will give me the strength I need to face the challenges of motherhood and this season.
Psalm 28:7 The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him, and I am helped.  My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song.

I just have to ask and let Him.  What a gracious loving God we serve!!  I am praying Moriah sleeps better tonight but if not maybe I will learn something new, or be reminded of what I should already know, again.

I hope your day is going well, mine is sure going better than the past couple days.    


  1. I rarely comment, but I enjoy keeping up with you through your blog. Your lessons are an encouragement to me.

  2. You're a great mom and you're doing a great job. I absolutely understand how difficult it is to keep a positive attitude and stay encouraged with sick kids in the house. I'm praying for you!!

  3. Hey Amy,
    I know how you feel about hitting the two's early. Aliyah went from easy going and sweet to a wild child overnight at about 17 months. It will get easier and better, I promise. Thanks for blogging. I feel like a spy....but I enjoy hearing about your life and getting to know Moriah through your words.

    Aunt Tina